Bad relationship

8 hours since I deleted my Facebook account, and 5 hrs since I deleted Instagram. I am already having withdrawal symptoms. I feel anxious, I can't help myself from reaching the phone every 5 minutes, every time I hit the home button and the blue f was not on the screen, it feels odd. 

What is it about facebooking that satisfy all cravings; food, attention, connections and at the same time are able to make you feel so inadequate in every aspect of life. And despite how depressing it makes me feel, I keep coming back for more. It's like being in a bad relationship, it is actually just that. A bad relationship; Facebook and I.

Getting over it...this is going to take a while 😣

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