Rebirth 2018

First step to being kind to myself is to quit Facebook and Instagram. That was 5 hour ago and my whole facebooking life flashed before me. I was a baby still in Instagram so quitting that doesn't really bother me that much.

So much time wasted.

What I truly want for myself is self acceptance. Accepting to what Allah has planned for me and making the best out of it. 

The making of a 36 year old woman, a wife, a mother of three. Plucked out from my comfort of being a working mom,living in a big family in warm friendly Putrajaya into a totally isolated environment of being a housewife in a foreign land. 

No woman is an island in social media but here I am cutting myself out from the internet scene just so I can see the real people in life. It's a choice I had to make for I had succumbed countless times, putting myself into despair thinking I am not good enough or my life is not good enough compared to others. My weakness I admit, and the only way I see to improve myself is to get away from the pageant. It is like a pageant a lot of the time. It is not for me anymore. Thank you Facebook for teaching me...in a way.

My children is also another motivation to quit social media. Cutting down my screen time means me walking the talk. I feel like such a hypocrite everytime telling them to cut down their hp/screen time, when I myself is so attached to the phone. Now our together time means sitting together playing or reading or watching Upin Ipin on the tv (still screen time but at least sitting together :p) 

Those wasted times scrolling facebook, my writing skills has rusted, maybe lost somewhere. Hence this is me trying to start back from scratch. 

***Masa yang terbuang tidak dapat dicari semula. Semoga Allah memberikan rezeki masa untuk aku beribadah dan menggunakan masa yang ada untuk memperbaiki diri,***

Maybe 30 minutes of writing a day is a good start.

InsyaAllah